Surrender.

One of those words that has so many interpretations.

For the purposes of this post, I’m going to define it as:

The willingness to let go of the need to control to allow yourself the opportunity to go with the flow of the energy that surrounds you.

I used to try to control everything around me. I was so insecure I felt as if I needed to be able to orchestrate every aspect of my life or something might happen.

I now understand I needed to do that. When I decided to leave an unhealthy marriage, I took on the awesome responsibility of raising my two children alone. I never wanted them to suffer…I never wanted them to feel the pain. I wanted to do everything in my power to ensure that they felt loved, safe, and secure.

And…so I felt the need to control.

I’m not going to tell you that it didn’t work for me. In many ways it did. I went back to school earned 3 Masters degrees and had a successful career as a teacher. My children are grown, highly successful, working in careers that they are passionate about…and they are happy in their lives.

So…if it worked so well…why surrender?

A few years ago I began to realize that not only was trying to control everything exhausting…it was completely controlling me. Something in me began to surface…seeking freedom.

So gradually I began to let go.

I let go of needing to be what others wanted me to be.

I let go of needing to hold on to others.

I let go of needing to be what society said I should be.

I let go of hiding my beliefs.

I let go of the me that I was…to be the me that I am.

So…what has changed as a result?

I am able to move forward with courage, confidence, grace, and ease.

Opportunities that I never imagined have found me.

I understand what it means to love and be loved unconditionally.

I have learned to love myself.

I have faith and trust in myself.

I can make decisions with ease.

I allow myself to be guided…and I am free!

I do the most that I can with the gifts that I’m given in the moment I’m in…the rest I leave to the Universe…and that has made all the difference!

Surrender.

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